Goodbye IELTS !!!

Whew!!!  I didn’t feel so comfortable and relax this much after I have realised that I had to face with my close friend (IETLS) again, it was two months ago. Two months with only IELTS, started on the beginning of the day; after fueling something in my stomach, one purpose of this process was just only preventing it from screaming whilst I was paying all of my attentions on confusing passages on reading practices, then I started to sat my lovely bottom down on my uncomfortable chair and from that time my day had passed unnoticeably, until the time when I lifted my face up it was the same time with my window view was getting dark. Routine life had carried on like that for almost 2 months. Now it’s done!!! I chased IELTS away from my life, and will never go back to meet it again, definitely. Sounds over the top, isn’t it? but if you have been talking it for 4 times (not included 2 times TOEIC) as I did you will understand my feeling perfectly.

Yeah!!! 4 times, you have heard that correctly, 2 times in Thailand and 2 times here, England. If someone asked me how can I bear it I have only one answer to tell them “I don’t know” hahaha..really I don’t know. It was just something that I have to accept it. This might be my punishment of my laziness and abandon on English language since I was in primary school till university.

I was like a 3 years old student when I first entered the special English course at Wall Street language school, Thailand..It was a big stupid investment in my life. I paid a huge money with hope to improve my ability on English but I got nothing from there. It might be my mistake somehow that I didn’t pay much attention on it enough. Before I finished the course there I had been looking for another institute where should be cheaper than Wall street and luckily found IDP where I felt like my brain was getting bigger a little bit during studying there. After 3 months at IDP some of my classmate asked me to try IELTS preparing course as we had the same purpose “study aboard” at Chula-longkorn university. I took 3 months course at Chula where I said Hello to IELTS the first time, Chula was a fantastic place to learn any knowledge as it is best well-known university in Thailand. The end of the course was the first examination I took. As you could guess easily the result come out badly at 5 band score. One month later I took again cos I needed the better result for applying the course in university in UK. The next result slightly rose to 5.5 band score. Unfortunately, it wasn’t good enough to be accepted to study in this country. So one thing that I could think about at that time was “let go and live there, get used to environment, people and language, this would be the last and best method for my stupid brain to learn. I took a risk coming here and seriously studied English 6 hours a day for 3 months at LSI International language school in Brighton, UK. I took the exam here last year after 3 months in UK, my score rarely increased to reach at 6, as all of you have already known about “6″ my magic number of this year. Obviously, the result was less than all the universities here required. My life had been in the dark world (with dark flat mate 555) for a moment after that fail. Suddenly, my last decision was coming up while I was about to give it up.”I have to try again”. From that time to now, it was about 7 months ago. I took it again today, when was my last time for IELTS examination, I have strongly made my decision to stop for pressures and stresses from taking it. I couldn’t do it better than this, and whatever the result coming up with I won’t be devastated, sad or upset anymore. Because I already did my best and no more for English language which has taken my huge investment  in my life. It isn’t only about the money also my time, feeling and proud what have been taken away from me long long time.

I called my father as soon as I came out from the testing room. I was happy with what I had done in there, so I needed to tell one important person who has always supported and given me this enormous chance to do what I repeatedly keened to do. He said something which touching my heart strongly “Come back home whenever you want, ok? I don’t care your degree, actually, I have never minded about it, ever. At least I know that you have tried so hard, com back home my girl”. I almost cry with that beautiful words, I have to say sorry to him though cos my result  certainly coming up with the good score this time, I have kept telling myself this since 2 months ago.

Anyway, keep your fingers cross for me my friends, I still need it from all of you. hahaha..